Happy Halloween, for starters...

I was honest for a second night in a row! After the guy #1 asked if I was seeing anyone, I said yes and told him about the other one and asked if he'd ever be offended if I wanted to try something exclusive with the other guy [should it ever come to that] and he said absolutely not and he hopes that I feel comfortable enough to talk to him about anything. Both of these guys are fantastic. I slept so well last night! My anxiety is almost entirely gone, and it's all thanks to me... I actually cured myself.

"W" was pretty good! I enjoyed it. For anyone who knows nothing about George W. Bush, it's a LOT to take in, but honestly, and I hate to say this, who doesn't know who he is? It humanized Bush and gave him more layers than we have ever been exposed to before, and also made you feel really bad for him - the father/son dynamic... he has [seemingly] grown up feeling as though he's never measured up well enough for his fathers approval. It also gave me new respect for Bush Sr.

We got some very, very, VERY exciting news in our Staff Meeting today at work, but I don't think I'm allowed to say anything yet - not online at least, but my co-workers and I couldn't stop talking about it all day. When I am at liberty to write about it, I will!

I'll be down at The Crocodile Lounge (14th, btw 1st and 2nd], if anyone's in the neighborhood! I will be there celebrating my friend Nicks' birthday, with my friend Chris that I haven't seen in forever and he's bringing some people too!

Our actress who's playing the female Russian mobster just arrived at the theatre dressed as Little Bo Peep... hehe!!

I get an A+++!

... for actually saying what I wanted! I actually sat the guy down last night and told him how I felt about this past Sunday night, that I felt like things moved too rapidly, and I wanted to slow it down a bit, lay off the sex for a bit, and is this okay with him. His response:

"Of course! That's totally fine. Hey, I won't even touch you!" He smiled, and then put his arms around me and kissed me a few dozen times. I thanked him profusely during the course of the night, but I knew I needn't, I just wanted to emphasize how much I appreciated his response. We slept incredibly closely in his bed after that.

This has only made me like him all the more.

We watched The Strangers last night. The director and writer[s] did a very good job at building suspense, but the end was kind of a let down. They stabbed the two protagonists and did so "because they were home" and then left them to bleed to death. It still creeped me out though! Tonight I'm seeing "W." I'm looking forward to it!

Back to the box office...

Would a guy. . .

... that really liked me respect it if I asked him if we could not have sex for a little while longer even though we've already done so once? Reason being because I feel like I did it too soon?

Oh, and I'm officially an adult.

I sent away my first rent check and cable bill today. And I still have a really nice amount of money left in my account! I think I'm going to go look for a Halloween costume tomorrow or the day after... Any suggestions as to what I should be? I don't even really have plans but I feel like I should do something...

And I think I like him... I'm sad that he's not sleeping in my bed tonight.

Changes

I feel like a definite change of pace is needed until those people are not "making" me feel like shit. I put quotes around the word making because technically no one can make you feel any specific way - we feel the way we do because of ourselves, no one else.

I had a really lovely night [and morning] with the guy last night. We went to a restaurant on the UWS for dinner, and I had a killer macaroni and cheese. For one of the first times in my life, I was aggressive and he certainly didn't mind, though he admitted he wasn't expecting anything! Every time I think he's great, he reveals something else about him that makes me think even better of him [this is why I gave him a tooth brush that is marked as his now, hehe]. Am I starting to like him? I have no idea . . . I'm just going to keep taking it slow.

Obama's "closing" speech today was amazing. When he mentioned one of McCains policies and people started booing, he paused and looked up and said, "No need to boo! Just VOTE!" And that was it, I officially love him. He's above all the counterproductive shouting and hateful comments, something the Republican rallies appear to endorse quite a lot. I'm so ready for election day to be here and over with!

After work yesterday, I went for a walk through Central Park because it was gorgeous out, and I took my camera with me. I liked taking pictures of the sun. My walk ended down at Strawberry Fields. I headed to Crumbs after and got a cinnamon apple cupcake! YUM!

My day off today was great, very relaxing. I went back to sleep after he left to get to work til noon, it was niceeeee. I still have a bit of re-organizing to do, especially of desk stuff. I'm getting Elizabeth: The Golden Age from Netflix tomorrow, yay! I spent tonight after something I had to do at work, I came home, and found out some jackass called me fat because he found out I didn't find him attractive... so I had to do some yoga after that. We all have our insecurities. That one only effects me when someone says it - otherwise, I like how I look.

If I never hear the words "maverick" or "joe the plumber" again...

It'll be too soon.

I'm watching Palin's speech in Des Moines on CNN and she explained to her audience what a tax cut was.... Or was she explaining it to herself? Oh, and little Knocked-up Palin isn't there - but standing right behind Palin at the podium is a couple who looks no older than 17, holding a baby!

Yay! More successes from abstinence-only education!

AWESOME!

What happens on prom night...

Prom Night was so awful that it was amazing! I predicted every plot twist, every step of the way, but it was still incredibly suspenseful! (Yeah, that doesn't make sense to me either.)

I'm in the box office now - getting ready to open up soon. I'm trying to give away a bunch of my cookies to the cast and crew - I made too many!! I don't think I'm going to go out tonight again, I've got a full day ahead of me tomorrow [which I'm so excited for]. I'll probably do some yoga & crunches again, maybe meditate too. But if anyone would like to come over, drink some white zinfandel, and watch Becoming Jane with me, let me know!

I wish I could be burning all these movies that I'm getting off Netflix - does anyone have a good burning program that breaks the protection code off the DVDs? Please comment and let me know.