I wanna be over you.

You know the guy that's been practically ignoring me for 3-4 weeks now, except for when, you know, he has time to send me a 5 word text? Our texts tonight.

Him: Ooh nooo... How are you feeling? Poor sicky! Any fun NYE plans?
Me: I'm feeling run down, thanks, which my NYE plans are up in the air because of. You must be really busy that it took you a day to answer my text...
Him: Noo... I just saw your text. I didn't use my phone yesterday. More jersey fun! It's too cold to clean gutters. Are you resting?!
Me: Yes, I'm resting.
Him: Rest and soup!!! And maybe a few hours out? It's sooo cold out!
Me: Yeah, I'll be out tonight for a few hours. What're you doing?
Him: In [someplace], NY with college friends. Quet but fun! Headed anywhere fun?
Me: Yea, a few places. Have a good night, happy new year.
Him: Happy new year to you too! Can we play in '09?
Me: I'm not sure. Call me next year.
Him: Deal! :)

What the hell? Does he not understand that I'm upset or does he just not care? Whatever, happy new year!

First time.

I have no plans for NYE and I don't care!!!!

Haha.

They're such idiots. This is why I said NOT to bail out the big auto companies. I love this quote from Mark Cuban, "Lets see, is there anything more idiotic than spending more than 100k dollars on a full page ad “thanks for letting me waste your money” ad?"

Dumbasses.

Plans for tonight...

1) Drop off rent check
2) Exchange SATC dvd for 2-disc version at B&N on 82nd Street
3) Grocery shopping
4) Stop in Verizon store on 96th and Amsterdam
5) The City at 10pm!!

Oh, really, quiz master, ya think?

This couldn't have been more spot-on.

I am a catch.

I apologize in advance for how shallow and self-centered this blog is going to sound, but I'm being a bit toyed around by a guy right now, and frankly, I think he should appreciate me much more than he is and this is why.

Yes, I am sometimes a huge bitch, but that's usually just my 'honesty' being taken the wrong way. I am a lot of qualities that should be desired but I just haven't found that guy who will appreciate these qualities yet. I am honest (possibly to a fault), loyal (aka I don't cheat, never have, and won't hook up with guys who are in relationships), honest (I never lie), I'm witty and sarcastic, I'm very cute (some say beautiful, and no, not just my family), and believe it or not, despite myself (when I am in the right place in my life), I am an amazing girlfriend. I am actually very caring and do a lot of little thoughtful things. And I don't date guys (or use them) for their money - I always offer to pay. I like quirky guys. I generally date men with more personality than looks (right now I'm dating someone with an equal amount of both)... though that's not going so great right now, so I shouldn't be talking about it.

I'm not writing this for anyone's benefit but my own. I wanted to write this so I would have it to look back on when I'm feeling down because I honestly believe it. I have a lot of faults, but who doesn't? Maybe I'm being too sensitive, but I just need a bit more attention than I'm currently getting.

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I had a lovely mini-vacation... Christmas was quiet, but lovely with our close family friends. Maine was great too. Lots of quality time with my younger cousin - and my aunt. Cooking galore! I finally got a tea pot! Yay! And I have a pink desk chair now... it looks cute in front of my pink curtains and mini pink Christmas tree!

I don't know whether I should finish reading The Devil Wears Prada or My Horizontal Life first... oh well, goodnight!

the loot...

a hot pink fleece throw, a pink pillow with a rhinestone crown on it, a necklace hanger, a ring holder, a pink chair for my desk, my pace diploma framed and ready to be hung (my parents have such a sense of humor), a nightie, a pink flowey shirt, english chocolate, a pink grocery tote, the hills season 3 on dvd, SATC the movie on dvd, the mother tongue (bill bryson), the lost continent (bill bryson), i hate my neck (book), blink (malcolm gladwell), i was told there'd be cake (book), weights, and i think that's it...

i asked my dad if we could exchange the SATC dvd to the 2-disc and he said, "yeah, i know you asked for that one, but i think those are a waste." hah. needless to say, i won! i'm showered and in my pink satin dress... almost time to go get chinese food with our fellow half-breeds! off to maine tomorrow, and i'm STOKED!

Happy/Merry Christmas!

My family's Christmas tree.

the first of the season..

the first starbucks giftcard of the season.... <3

Crossies!

I know, that word is very obnoxious. Let this one slide. My co-worker and I are crossing our fingers that our director decides to close the office completely tomorrow, instead of closing at 2pm.

The day always seems to speed by until about 12:30pm. Then time just shrugs by. Oh, clock, how I hate you.

Cross 'em!

Funny quote...

... from our holiday party when we were opening our "secret santa" gifts...

"Save the paper, cause we 'po!" - boss

(ps: he was kidding.)

It's the millenium!

Or my blog just got 2000 hits.

Happy 2000 hits!

Let it snow.

Didn't do a whole lot this weekend - the weather was intense and I stayed in! Except on Saturday night, I went out to get dinner... and obviously over to Magnolia's after. I didn't get one of these but they were so cute I had to photograph them! I have my first "session" tonight and then it's the season finale of The Hills! I'm totally excited and I won't deny it. I'm going home on Christmas Eve... and then Maine on Friday until Sunday. I'm super-stoked to be going to Maine. I haven't been since June and there will probably be awesome, awesome outlet sales at the Gap and Banana right after Christmas. Spending quality time with my family up there is fun too, I guess :) Here is a pretty picture of my walk way in the snow...

happy holidays from...

Merry Christmas. You were all great in bed. Hope you stay stiff biatch!

We got a postcard from The Jove today that said the above.

He's just not that into me.

This has crossed my mind more than once, and I've pushed it back. I think I have to admit it. Maybe he'll return from his vacation and the holidays and prove me wrong, but he's going to have to do a lot to prove to me that he's for real (I'm not holding my breath).

I can't take this anymore.

But I'm gonna need more
than what you're giving me
I wanna feel you but I feel empty
You gotta help me, you gotta meet me half way.
- Kelly Clarkson

I don't know whether to scream or cry right now.

Didn't you hear? Shoprite wouldn't put Adolf Hitler Campbell's name on his birthday cake? But Walmart would!

Office Reactions:

"He's gonna change his name by the time he's 12, or he's gonna be facing a whole lotta ugly from a never-ending parade of stupid." - Coworker

"Yes this is America, you are free to choose to make your child's life a living hell!" - Another coworker

Let it snow, let it snow...

The view out my window!

Haha-heehee-haha-ho...

I attended that last night, with Dan and Lindsay! It was a good time - and I put on my new pink satin dress that I got on sale for $20 at Old Navy (yes, I proudly shop there)! I'd never seen a gathering like this before, it was definitely an experience! I didn't get home til after 2!

AND it snowed today! HUGE flakes! Nothing stuck, but it was pretty to watch. It's supposed to snow more later tonight, maybe, yay! I'll already be happily inside my apartment and able to watch it :)

"Great minds wallow in the same gutter." - Coworker

This is completely accurate.

Every issue is the same stuff with new titles.

if you give a cat a christmas tree..

it'll claw its way inside.. this is a picture of a friend of a friend..

another funny boy.

me: You should bring a cute girl with you to Cabo.
paolo: yes, I should pack up with a cutie and relax. sadly the cuties I meet tend to be manufactured by Crazy, Inc.

love me, hate me, say what you want about me.

I didn't get the Aerosoles ones, but i got Aldo ones, with a shorter heel! i love them.


And I finally saw Frost/Nixon and it was fantastic. Really, really fantastic.

Like-mindedness.

me: i wanna get sparkly red nail polish...
jeremy: man, we have like the same thoughts
jeremy: scary

i want you.

i want you so bad.

And no one has them anymore.

One last affirmation.

Me: paolooooooo, why are men so confusing? :(
Paolo: they are not dear
you are overthinking it
you want tomorrow, today

Something Blue..

"I just didn't feel close to her. After this long, I should have felt close to her. Or at least had the sense that I knew her. . . I mean, I knew her taste in music, art, food, travel, literature. But I still didn't know her." - Ethan

It's weird to read this! I had felt after Sunday that I didn't know these facts (favorites, for instance) about him, but now I'm thinking that those are all frivolous and knowing the person is more important than all of that. And I do feel like I know him as a person, or at least getting to know him better with each passing day. And I do feel close to him.

So, needless to say, Something Blue was another amazing book by Emily Giffin. Now Love the One Your With has to come out in paperback! Tomorrow I'm going to see Ian's one act with Amy. Just like the good ol' days...

a normal conversation at work.

Me: Ugh, I have peanut butter stuck in my throat.
Doug: Well, just pretend it's a normal Saturday night, and what'd you do then?
Me, laughing: Ew!
Doug: You laughed!

Men are funny, sometimes.

Me: I stress out over lots of stuff so I don't sleep well.
Jeremy: I mean, I do understand that it's stressful watching Lauren [Conrad, from The Hills], and figuring out which guy she should be with.

New undies.

I love getting new undies... especially from Aerie and Old Navy. Here's the latest stash from Aerie that I received last night:

Bad dream.

I had an awful dream last night (this morning?). I dreamed that we were getting done with a date at his place and another he was seeing came over too early. And then he still tried to get me to come up anyways.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I know he's not like that (he's smarter). It wasn't the fact that he was seeing someone else that bothered me, it was that he wasn't smarter planning his dates further apart :P

We all have doubts.

I took in an advanced screening of the movie-adaptation of John Patrick Stanley's TONY winning play Doubt last night at the 34th Street Loews (thanks, American Theatre Wing!). It was very, very well done. The exteriors were filmed in the Bronx at the school that Stanley went to and the block he used to play on (fun fact!). I was never bored and hoping it'd be over soon, like I was on Broadway. The cast, including Meryl Streep, Philip Seymour Hoffman, Amy Adams, Viola Rose, were all fantastic and gave great performances. They gave a talk back after in the theatre with John Patrick Stanley. It was just incredible to be sitting in the same room with such a talented group.

Doubt is out in theatres on December 12th, go see it!

Also Frost/Nixon comes out today! Another play-to-screen adaptation, check that out too!

1 pint + 3 glasses of wine = a slightly hung over Allison

So, dinner was had with Lindsay at Republic last night and then drinks a couple of hours later at McFaddens in midtown east, with some people that she knows. I couldn't decline offers for free drinks, now could I? It was a nice time! But right now... ugh. Where's my water?

Lindsay is one of those friends that you can literally talk to about anything. She always listens and sometimes criticizes, but like I pointed out to her last night, it's always constructive criticism. We talk about our faults and what we think we need to change about ourselves, and then when we can't take it anymore, we realize we must go see our therapists (mine is still in the process of being found).

I'm seeing someone very soon... and I'm incredibly excited because we haven't had anytime together in what feels like a long time.

2nd mantra..

I know I can trust my own judgment.

Affirmation of the day:

I choose to be happy.